Bad Mother

Dear Sage- The last few days have been rough. I'm feeling like the worst Mother ever and your doing all you can to make me feel better. Which makes me feel worse, not your fault. Mommy's finally got a good job and I'm trying to get us back up and on our feet and it seems like one thing after another. I just cant seem to get the car working right. So I've been taking a cab to work for months now and figuring out how to get home. The cab is costing a fortune but I know I cant loose this job. So because I cant keep up with the bills now the lights are out. And because they want so much money, money I don't have, I don't know when they are going to be back on. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. And your being such a good sport and not complaining. Even offering me your $2 from your wallet. Your compassion and smiles just make my heart swell. I wish I could be the mother you deserve. I wish that you wouldn't have to even know about things like no car, the power going out, food being low in the cupboards until pay day. I promise you that I'm trying my hardest. That EVERYTHING I do, I do to try to make your life better. To make you happy. To see you smile and hear you tell me that you love me. I want to be the mother that you can be proud of and that you can say gave her all. I'm trying. I love you infinity googolplex, Mommy